going to heaven in a wee row boat

junkierawkstar @ 2008-04-26T01:17:00

2008-04-25T18:29:06Z

I AM UTTERLY JABBA-FIED !
http://www.jabbawockeez.com/

BEN CHUNG IS A HOT MOFO :)

junkierawkstar @ 2008-04-03T02:09:00

2008-04-02T19:03:57Z

i want these badass shoes badly. enough said.

ps : why is everyone calling him BACON now ??
tsk. we're always imitated never duplicated. yeah, you nomsayin' haha

junkierawkstar @ 2008-04-02T00:12:00

2008-04-01T17:08:08Z

Just Imagine having only 24 hours to live before your life came to an end, and you had to leave this world forever.
If this were your last day, what would you want to do?
Would you just sit back and smoke a cigarette?
Who would you want to see the most?
Is there someone you’d want to try to find?
Or is there a secret you’d just like to keep without telling anyone?
If you lived a life with no regrets, would you still be smiling when it’s all over?
Or would the judgments of God cause you to tremble and shake?

junkierawkstar @ 2008-03-31T18:20:00

2008-03-31T11:20:04Z

the weekend was productive.
Korean course, "Endang" movie premiere and Noraebang (korean karaoke) on Saturday; Big Bang Indonesia Forum gathering on Sunday.

I came late to the premiere of miyuki's "Endang" documentary film. When i got there the movie has already reached its ending and i felt kinda bad about it. Miyuki san was there but Takahiro and Takafumi didnt come. In case you guys are wondering what's the movie all about. Well, The plot revolves around the braveness of an Indonesian student who was killed after saving 2 Japanese students at Isegawa beach. The film was directed and produced by my friend, Inoue Miyuki. She produced this movie on a personal budget. And when being asked about it, she said that she was moved when she heard about the tragedy and she was upset that there were not a lot of Japanese media made a big cover on this matter. She thought everyone needed to know about it, thus she produced this documentary.

I have actually seen it when it was being played in Bandung last month, but i decided to see it again to show my support to her. It's nice to see people's enthusiasm on this documentary, it was shown by the vast amount of people who filled the Japan Foundation's Auditorium that day. Miyuki san has gone back to Japan yesterday and she is going to enroll this documentary to some of the film festivals in Japan. Hopefully, when i go to Japan later this year, i'll be able to hang out with her again.

Anyhow, i am going to Singapore next week. I am going there to meet up Sean Kingston and to attend his showcase at the Ministry of Sound on April 8th. I am also going to be the stringer for one of the youth magazines in Indonesia. Basically, i'll just make the report of the showcase and also do the exclusive interview with Sean Kingston.

I am not sure of the itinerary yet. However, for my singaporean friends, it will be really really really fun if we can hang out for awhile, even if it's gonna be a short meeting. I am most likely going to stay at The Peninsula Hotel Singapore. If you want to meet up, please send me a msg and let me have your phone numbers before my departure date. I am not really sure if i can access the internet when im in Singapore later.. Well, unless they provide the room with the free wireless connection :D

PS : are there a lot of hotspots (free wireless connection) area in Singapore ? im considering to bring along my laptop with me..

junkierawkstar @ 2008-03-27T04:53:00

2008-03-26T21:52:52Z

i am back.
yes, i have neglected this lj for a damn long time and im not sure people are reading this anymore, but owh well.

updates :

i dont work in the production field anymore.
[[[[goodbye crews, goodbye EPs, goodbye wardrobes, goodbye casting directors, etc etc]]]]

i am now helping my aunt, running her company.

i am also a contributor for this magazine called KOZINE www.mykozine.com
it's a singapore based free lifestyle magazine.
it's a bilingual one.
English and Korean
i write in english and my korean teacher will translate them into hangul for me.
my life revolves around Daehan Minguk now. yay.

what else..

oh yeah, it's almost 5 in the morning and im still awake.
i need to get up in 3 hrs so i can listen to the radio and participate in this certain quiz, that will send me to SG to see Sean Kingston concert.
no, i am not a fan of him.
im joining the fun because my BFF told me to.
if i come out as a winner, we'll get to travel together.
and nothing could be more fun than traveling with your BFF, right ?
right.

nothing really changes, eh
junkierawkstar is still a cheap bitch.

ps : i have a facebook, please do add me if you're interested
type the name SARI BURGESS

cheers.

hello hello hello

2008-03-23T19:47:14Z

that's me and the doraemon helmet.
despite the twenty-eight.
i am still the silly sari.
and yes, i puckered my lips in the pictures.
fugly hot bebeh.

junkierawkstar @ 2007-11-05T02:01:00

2007-11-04T19:06:34Z

My whole life was shaped by my old man. He's the source for my natural survival skills that are roughly two percent of all the pain I've dealt with. Ninety eight percent is compiled by the sneering I received in the past. I see it when I close my eyes at night.

Revenge is mine, this is going my way

junkierawkstar @ 2007-10-30T11:08:00

2007-10-30T17:13:32Z

It's been 3 years.
3 fuckin years and the wound is still not healed yet.
i really wish i had a little more time
to tell him that he's the most precious thing in the world to me
and that i love him more than anything in this world..
you are still number one in my heart.
i hope you're having fun on that next leg of the journey...

junkierawkstar @ 2007-10-25T22:00:00

2007-10-25T15:08:43Z

After the long of waiting, they finally aired the documentary of IDK journey on KBS World last friday and yesterday for the last rerun.

Eventhough i've been "warned" that this documentary would be aired worldwide, i've never really expected my acquaintances abroad would be that lucky enough to catch a glimpse of me in this documentary.

Err yeah.. please note that i didnt really make an effort to let them know about this whole documentary thing, so there's actually a really really small chance for them to find out about it..

However, it seems that my luck has been runnin really low lately. Look what i received in my inbox yesterday :

"So you were in KBS World tv!!!!!!!!!!
and you got to meet JunJin!!..saw Epik High in YDLL
and got to kiss n smell Hyun Bin shirt!!!!!!
sialan lo!! sudah jadi superstar di KBS!! lucky beetch!!!hahaha! jeles banget gua!!..
but i was so happy for you babes..!..i was telling all my sisters i know you gals!!"

oh yeah.. that's my fiercy singaporean friend..
i told you all i (*cough* we..) was (were) going to be famous for 30 minutes !
And now, when people see the IDK kids.. they all will know that the chapter of our lives entitled "SEOUL"
umm wait.. BIG CORRECTION THEIR NOT OUR.

Hell, the chapter of my life is still entitled STOCKHOLM !

However, seriously, when i watched the documentary and saw myself on TV... i couldn't think of anything else but "BEEJEZZUS ! WHAT AN AWFUL SET OF TEETH I HAVE THERE ERR HERE ! NOOOOOOO !! FUGLY FUGLY TEETH !"

oh yes, we did have fun shooting the documentary. the laughter, the joy. it was a memorable moment indeed. However, being as vain as i can and always be, my whole cognition of this documentary has changed.

It's no longer a beautiful reminder of the good times in Seoul, it's a reminder of how bad i need a BRACES !

oh yes, im a self-centered bastard.
you just noticed that ?
tsk.

junkierawkstar @ 2007-05-31T16:41:00

2007-05-31T09:31:07Z

요즘 네 안부를 물었어
행복한지 누굴 만나는지
예전처럼 넌 아름다운지
그렇게 잘 지내길, 잘 지내길
아픈 일 다신 없길
새로운 사랑이 어울린다는
그 말 듣기만 기다리면서

아무 대답 없는 너의 안부만이
널 애써 지워낸 내 맘을
다시 아프게만 해

그저 괜찮은 척 하고
조금 난 웃어만 보였어
모른다고 지난 일이라고
아니 그냥 장난이었다고
그렇게 믿어지길 차라리 잊혀지길
장난해 보려고 아무 말 않고서
놀리는 거라 믿고서

행복해줘 이젠 행복해줘... Haengbokhaejwo ijen haengbokhaejwo ...

junkierawkstar @ 2006-12-25T17:29:00

2006-12-26T10:34:38Z

It's the month of cakes and candles, snow and songs, celebration and decorations, laughter and love, joy and peace.. It's Christmas !!

MERRY CHRISTMAS, BITCHES !!

i dont have pics of me on christmas day. However, im gonna share the pictures of me with yukata which was taken last week and few pics of me and my new hair which was taken yesterday.. enjoy !

Aee at TVXQ Indo Launching Party :

me and my close friend, ucii :)

ucii-aaa.. i heart you to bits !

Aee @ MTV Indonesia Big Bang Awards (closing party) - the theme was japanese style ^_^

aee, daniel and weedee

banana, my fave person at MTV Indo.. the best boss ever !

the lovely mtv what's up team .. ria, weedee + aee

totally wasted ! i <3333 jack daniels !!

NEUE HAIR:

junkierawkstar @ 2006-12-12T15:26:00

2006-12-12T08:26:54Z

so yes, it's true i turned 27 on Dec 7th
i was at the mall with my bestfriend when i ran into another close friend of mine (uci) who was looking for a present for my other friend (lissy) who's having a birthday on dec 8th .. errr.. puzzling, i know..

anyway.. we gathered up at this small cafe when my korean friend, song young min called. He was heading off back to Korea and wanted to see me before he left jakarta and he asked me if i could ring my other friend, Tarie, so she could join the fun.

When young min showed up, he brought me this creamy fruity cake and said he was meaning to bring a champagne or wine as well but my other friends (tarie and uci) said he shouldnt because the notorious aee shouldnt be drinking due to her liver problem. pffft..

uci, tarie + transgender aee

me + uci :

me trying to be cute

me + donna :

me looking tired and shitty..

junkierawkstar @ 2006-11-12T00:11:00

2006-11-11T17:11:44Z

life is just a bowl of pits, bitches

junkierawkstar @ 2006-09-07T16:16:00

2006-09-07T09:39:54Z

Ronald and Marie
Sept 2nd 2006

dudung and marie...

Almost five years ago they were just friend and along the years they grew together in good and bad, support and understand each other, love and be loved.

they said :

" We can't describe in words, how thankful we are to have each other."

On September 2nd, their wish had come true.. they had united as one.. and i am really happy for them..

congratulations dudung and marie !!!

me in my kebaya...

junkierawkstar @ 2006-08-24T12:48:00

2006-08-24T06:18:13Z

i've been drowning my pain and shit in work and ciggies. haven't really got any breaks since months ago. one project to anothers.. from dawn till dawn.. i work more than i sleep.
i've downloaded a hell amount of commercials and saved them on my computer as my work assets.
im still tying to be oblivious about the dramas in my life. i've had too many wounds and bruises inside that i dont care to deal with one anymore.

so that's what has been happening in my life.
aee has forgotten how to live a proper life.

junkierawkstar @ 2006-05-01T21:53:00

2006-05-01T14:56:58Z

sarcastic director. temperamental assistant director. panicky executive producer. bitchy clients and agency.

i surely had fun shooting the commercial for this certain brand.
hah

junkierawkstar @ 2006-04-15T02:51:00

2006-04-14T19:54:29Z

the unreasonable jealousy.
the never-ending quarrels.
the excessive tears, screams and heartaches.
the stupid fights over small unnecessary things.

what's the point in having a relationship then ?
why bother ?

give it up.

junkierawkstar @ 2006-03-31T20:16:00

2006-03-31T13:27:32Z

the pessimist takes a sort of gloomy pleasure in observing the depths to which human behaviour can sink. The more sin he sees, the more his belief in original sin is confirmed. Everyone likes to have his deepest convictions confirmed. That's one of the most abiding of human satisfactions...

김정식, 버거십다...

junkierawkstar @ 2006-03-26T01:53:00

2006-03-25T19:03:20Z

In front, I smile brightly like I mean it
But right when I get inside, I give a smirk
Trustworthy people disappear, one two
I’m not an exception, still the same person
I speak faster than I look I would
Wherever people go, their mouths keep talking
I don’t even know me, so how would you know me?
Listen when I tell you nicely, but if you won’t, fine

junkierawkstar @ 2006-03-20T00:44:00

2006-03-19T17:53:26Z

something inside me died.
the last 10 years should have been about building a life, growing, developing, taking whatever fate threw at me. But i havent been able to do that because every move i've made, every decision i've made, has been about one moment in my life that can never be erased and can, I now realize, never be put right.

junkierawkstar @ 2006-03-17T15:08:00

2006-03-17T08:11:42Z

i turned down the offer to meet Kings Of Convenience in person today.

why ?

because i was too lazy to go.

soooooooooooooooooooooo...........
how are you all doing ?
1 more month before im done with MTV.

junkierawkstar @ 2006-02-12T21:46:00

2006-02-12T14:50:55Z

i just got back from Pontianak with my aunt's family for the "Cap Go Meh" celebration.

the flight to Pontianak was horrible.
the take off was awful.
there were lots of awful turbulance, i thought we were goin to crash down.
the landing was awful.
blah.

aside from the horrible flight.
the weekend at Pontianak was alright.
we watched the Dragon Attraction in front of the hotel on Saturday.
it was a new, exciting experience for me.
a lot of people were giving hong pao (money in a red envelope) to the dragon and as a return they'd be given the red strings (which is a symbol of the dragon's beard) for luck :D
and i, my friends, only got 2 red strings.
hehehehe...

i read in the local newspaper, there were 6 dragons went on parade around the Pontianak city..
and on Sunday evening, the dragons would be burned.
I asked my aunt why they need to burn the dragons and my aunt said that if they didnt burn the dragons then the city would be in danger.

Sunday was the time for the tatung parade.
we ran into some of them on our way to the airport.
they look scary :[

the fish:

the dragons :

^ dragon parade

Dragon Attraction in front of the hotel :

The Tatung :

ps : the flight home was super fine :D

junkierawkstar @ 2006-02-09T16:06:00

2006-02-09T09:07:18Z

okay..
wtf is wrong with my lj layout ?!!!!

can someone pls explain it to me ?

junkierawkstar @ 2006-01-31T02:26:00

2006-01-30T19:37:07Z

2 weeks ago, mbak inka rang me up and offered me a position as the show producer of MTV pick and play.

"aee, do not take any other jobs, okay!"

okay.

it's been 2 weeks since she called and the last time she called, she told me that they're still proccessing my 2 months of contract.

last wednesday, i got a fone call from this guy named Arif, who's a friend of this other guy named Reza.
he told me to come for an interview on friday but i skipped it. on Saturday, Reza called and asked if i could come on Monday for an interview and i said yes.

today, i went to see Reza for the interview and they told me to come back on Wednesday.

first of all, i didnt know and i still dont know who reza is and i dont know where did he get my number from. when we met today, i did not recognize him.. i've gone completely blank and just gave him an idiot grin when i saw him face to face.

I think i got this job as an assistant of casting director at this production house.
umm wait.. im not really sure about my position.. they just said they need someone to fill the casting team.
anyway, the guy who interviewed me today told me to come back on wednesday to talk about my salary and perhaps my contracts ? i dont know.. he just said i should come back on wednesday around lunch time to talk about the salary..

it's really confusing..
and how come the same things always happen to me, this repetition thing.
the last time, i turned down the offer from lynx films because mtv offered me a job
and now the same thing happens again.
im always torn in-between mtv and another company..
and i always end up choosing mtv.
but not this time.. (hopefully)

junkierawkstar @ 2006-01-24T21:52:00

2006-01-24T14:52:59Z

Last night I dreamed I ate a ten-pound marshmallow, and when I woke up the pillow was gone.